hi i havent blogged in about a month. after the guitar hero thing- i mostly spent week 3 trying to study, only started in week 4, panicked everyday and ended up with disastrous results. whatever- im gonna earn that mango madness from mr lee. (pinru and pamela also!!)

last weekend my cousin passed away. i don't know how to deal with death, especially this close. talked to her sister alot, and tried to help her family pull through.
cheryl ang yi hui you'll be fine! jiayou! <3 i'll miss my cousin, definitely. there're so many things i need to get out of me but i don't know how to express it in words. so i thank God for friends like dawn pamela qq pinru who'll listen to me rant and get suddenly emotional. pinru and wiganesh bought me macarons! yellow ones somemore. thanks :D watched Atonement recently. the start nearly bored me to sleep but it got nicer and then it left me quite unsatisfied so i went to buy the book, read the front and end and that's it. about my studies... i have to believe that i can do it, not only that- i need someone to really believe that i can do it before i think i can do it. sad shit needs affirmation from others. i need more discipline, i need to push myself more, i need to stop day dreaming and like what pamela said- need to stop thinking that im the victim in the world of academics. i need to not be mediocre. i will i will i will.