well. i got my results back today. i'd expected better, but i think i'll be fine.

i dont know if im supposed to feel sad over my results, or to feel anything at all, because i really dont feel anything for my results. i dont feel letdown, i dont feel injustice, i dont feel euphoric (why should i, anyway?), i dont feel angry; i simply dont care about this promos results and it scares me because then it means that im indifferent towards this part of my education, my future, my existence.

i don't want to be apathetic or supine when it comes to my ____ education cos i friggin wanna succeed in life (middle child syndrome, sorry).

that being said, my attempt to conquer the promos wasnt lackadaisical or anything. it was acceptable, or at least i think it was. i can't fathom why i didnt do as well as i wanted to.