okay. i know im supposed to study, but heck.


1. i don't study to gain knowledge, i study to get where i want to be 2 years from now
2. i wish someone should change the education system in singapore, then my kids (if any) will worship him/her
3. AJC is pathetically small
4. studying kills my creativity; i haven't dreamt of anything surreal yet, for the entire year. unlike last year, where flying clothes actually existed in lalaland. now it's just... econs. yes, i dreamt econs test was on drawing circles.
5. i wonder what i would be like now if i had stayed in ACJC
6. poly life is very, very alluring
7. i have yet to touch econs
8. i wouldn't mind being stuck in 2007 forever, being 16 forever, taking the o levels forever, being happy forever, being contented forever.
9. i refuse to be retained (ironic cos i'm here)
10. i want a superbrain

11. my house is too small for my mother's voice. i'll go deaf one day.
12. i will exterminate all the ants in my home
13. i should clear the mess in my room asap
14. i should stop leaving glassware in places where they're in danger of falling and breaking
15. i should get synthetic plants since the ones i have are either fugly or half dead
16. i should change the kiddy curtains in my room. but, i have inertia cos they actually stimulate my happy cells
17. my room is falling apart
18. my table is heavily scarred and tattooed with angst and boredom
19. i should have 4 pillows instead of 3
20. we need a new fridge

21. qiaoqin amuses me very much. she's awesome. <3
22. jinyi makes me want to arm chio everytime she says something. she's so serious sometimes, it's funny.
23. dawn is.. *le sigh* hahahha. i love her anyway.
24. sara is a bulldog. and my part time physics tutor. :D
25. joanne- i like!!
26. jane makes me high
27. pamela makes me sane in 21/08
28. pakleng is sorely missed
29. manting should stop bingeing and stop complaining about her "fatness"
30. rahardhi is anti feminism. ze mcp.

31. life is too long. i think we should only live for a maximum of 60 years
32. i am still trying to determine the purpose of our existence
33. i don't know if heaven or hell exist
34. if there is a procrastiNation, i'm emigrating there. i rock at what they do.
35. we should all know when we're going to die
36. i want to stop my heart for 10 minutes and see what happens
37. is reincarnation real?
38. the concept of a plant being a living thing is waaay weird
39. i wonder is animals have souls
40. Judgment Day scares me

41. i should be taller
42. i am doomed for eternal singlehood
43. i can't put on weight no matter how hard i try (yes dawn, i feel you)
44. i am a surrealist
45. i am a sister, a cousin, a niece, an aunt, a daughter, a grandaughter, a friend
46. i am a last minute worker
47. i don't love easily
48. i love easily
49. i get nauseous quickly in a relationship
50. i do subconscious self destruction

51. my brother irritates me
52. he is very tall
53. he has inherited good genes and left me with b class ones
54. i secretly think his hair is gross the way it is now
55. i considered hiding all his clothes once
56. maybe i'll buy him more boxers
57. his studies force my parents to expect so much more from me
58. i'm so annoyed by the fact that i have to consistently out perform him
59. i hate him
60. i love my brother

61. my sister is going to be tall, and i will never be
62. i have to always force her to study or i get the blame
63. she should grow up soon so that i can bring her shopping then she can carry all my shopping bags since i will pay for everything
64. i fear for her academics
65. she may be superfat one day
66. she amuses me
67. "spork and foon", "the cat got molested"
68. she is way too polluted for her age
69. our age differs by 7 years
70. was she an accidental birth?

71. Twlight is awesome, robert pattinson is so not
72. Narnia makes me cry
73. Moulin Rouge! rocks oh so much
74. The Notebook was the second (english) movie that made me cry
75. Titanic was the first
76. A Haunting was my first horror show
77. i love starwars, somehow. maybe cos HC is in them
78. Closer had the nicest ending and opening
79. i have a soft spot for disney movies, esp The Lion King
80. the first time i saw pubic hair on tv was when i watched Where The Truth Lies

81. i want to elope someday
82. i need to find the saviour of my sanity
83. i need to go back one year in time
84. sec 4 was the best year of my entire life so far
85. my wedding should occur within the next 10 years, if not, i'll be a spinster for like all eternity
86. childbirth is scary
87. i cannot wait for next year to be over
88. i nearly got to forget someone "VERY VERY important" in my life, but i didn't. yes you're still under my skin
89. everyday i get older, closer to death and fuglier.
90. i never want to live long enough to be 90.

91. i was born in 1991
92. i was probably gazing spastically at the outside world everyday from my crib in 1992
93. i went to apple tree preschool in 1993.
memory: some ah bengs pressed their noses against the glass windows and they looked like pigs
94. i went to china, where i first tired liquor. when i peed, there was smoke cos it was so cold during the winter of 1994
95. i got my first dose of stagefright when i was forced to sing on stage at my brother's 1995 birthday party. i cried like there was no tmrw.
96. i heard of the atomic bomb and was friggin scared. that was 1996
97. 1997, when i was still carefree

98. i went to chongfu and fell into the fish pond. 1998- my sister was born. i was angry and upset and disturbed. it was such a shock, anyway. everything seemed wrong. i was suddenly expected to give in to someone whom i'd viewed an an intrusion.
99. 1999- i got my first pair of specs
100. mellinium. someone told me it was apocalypse.
101. 2001 and i transferred to ai tong
102. my first experience of back stabbing and hypocrisy
103. psles in 2003. my first major exams. my first crush!

104. anderson sec. 2004. rebellion was suddenly in the air
105. sec 2 was probably the naughtiest year of my life
106. i grew up, i think. 2006 was the start of awesomeness
107. 2007 was freak awesome. period.

108. 2008/present- life sucks, i'm sorry.

6:07am i have to go read chem and then to bed now.